Date added: 15 May 2019
Date added: 20 May 2019
The last conversation i had with you you asked if i had received my Roses , it was Dave’s Birthday week . Your voice was slower more laboured than i had heard before but you assured me you were not great but ok . You asked some very interestiing questions foolishly i just answered in my usual blunt heartless way . Flippant even ,for that im sorry .
Questions such as ,do you think anyone will rember me for my music or just for my mistakes .
Why do i hurt the people i love ?
Why an i weak ?
Why am i a fool?
How do i tell them i love them when i have behaved so badly for so very long ?
“Why are you even listening to me Kid “
and my reply to that one was honest “Because kid that is what i do “ .
He wasn’t perfect , in fact he could be infuriating .
But he called every now and again because he knew i was as disapproving of his life style as i was the day i met him and , i’d grown past insulting his diminutive stature ,instead i gave him as truthful reply As i could.
He did laugh , i miss his chuckle . It never crossed my mind as i hung up that id never hear that chuckle again . He was many things to many people
but to me he was the guy who’s kindness put me and Lu back together when Dave died , like a big brother making sure the kid sister was ok .
i’ve been defamed ,demeaned and insulted by many since he passed because i wanted to do something in his memory . Just to say thank you for being you and catching me when i was falling . There was more than one side to him behind the Bravado and lurid reputation , his drinking and his many women, personally i think his 3 wives deserve a medal lol.
But to me he was a friend who saved me at my lowest
Because that is what friends do . So i’m saying thank you for the Roses Kid they meant everything 😢💕